As I make changes to my online social media I’m sure many of my subscribers are wondering what is going on with my professional life. Long story short, as of last Friday, February 17th, I decided it was time to step down from my current position at Walmart Home Office. Being the kind of person that likes to think things over through and through, this was not a decision made in haste. But rather, a decision I had been mulling over in my mind for many months.
When I first began this journey and chapter of my professional life, I had an enthusiasm which seemed to fade the more I held on to my job position. Like a marriage, it takes two people to make a relationship work. I’m not one to point the finger as I own up to my role within this professional ‘marriage’ as mistakes were made on both sides of this relationship. However, I found myself unfulfilled professionally and lacking the enthusiasm I had when this journey first began.
When I handed in my resignation on February 17th, just a couple days after Valentines’, I knew I had fallen out of love with a professional relationship I use to love. A weight had been lifted off of my shoulders and I felt like I had added 10 years back to my life. Never being a person to aim for tradition, I found myself becoming like the nine to five zombies I use to scoff at. You know? The ones who work their nine to five jobs with no enthusiasm or passion. I had become jaded in my position. This jadedness crossed over into my personal life as well. I had stopped being the person that I use to be. Through creative differences, office politics, clashes with higher ups, and a nagging feeling of professional isolation I had become someone else. I felt like I was living someone else’s life.
I think one of the things that made me come to my decision to leave was I had reached a breaking point. I no longer wanted to live a lie and I wanted to be myself again, faults and all. After selling my shares from the company, converting my 401k into a trust, seeking peace and refuge in S.Florida, I feel a sense of relief. When I handed my resignation letter in, I felt like someone snapped me out of a fog. I felt like I had broken a chain and a script I read to myself when I was a little girl. This script to be perfect, get good grades and please others. Handing in my resignation, I could feel this script begin to end in my life finally. I feel inspired to create and write a new script. A more authentic script.
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Updated: Via New York Post on July 17, 2017, “N-word used on Walmart website to describe product color”